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In Medias Res

by Up In Smoke

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    This Up In Smoke's first print of their first full length album "In Medias Res".

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1.
Vile 02:32
The same story without a end Losing hope, losing will I must wipe this shame from my face Wipe away all my feelings Bury the hatchet in my spine Closing my eyes hoping the sun is grey My eyes are rolling back Push this down in the pit of my frame The world told me it would be better And the pain would stop No improvement, I'm only left with the question why? Why the fuck was it me? Never showing mercy No cliffhanger to my emotion I'm on the verge of a breakthrough Straight to a breakdown( I want you dead, I want you dead) When the clock strikes 12 there will be no prince Just the same fucked up person I've always been Used and abused If only I could go back To the day the earth stood still, I would make sure I would have never opened up my eyes He gazed from heaven above, So loving, So dear And he sat and watched
2.
You think we give a fuck about your built up feelings But it's clear I don't give a fuck about you Drown in your own self pity, Enough to fill the ocean floor We are the reason you sleep with one eye open When push comes to fucking shove Backed in a corner, we will rise above Pain and hatred is our only love This is something you can not be proud of We are the combination, made in hell This is the straw, that breaks, the camels back Fuck my life I watched the sun rise, It was the most beautiful thing, I have ever wanted to destroy I don't want, roses at my funeral, I've fantasied about this day for years I am the monster, in your dreams and in your life I am the nightmare, that haunts your dreams I am the disgust, the distress you feel Taste me in your lungs, I will be left cold and dead There's nothing to keep my life in check You said you'd be the one, but god was you fucking wrong
3.
Friend/Fake 03:02
I've been waiting oh so long, to fucking call you out. It's felt like a life time, I've been waiting to tell you; I wish it would have been you. You deserved this, You've are dead to me and always will. For so long I've let this bleed, We are not who we used to be. There's nothing left to do, I am everything you never will be, And I will bury you, . You make me fucking sick, Time wasted once again. I've ground my teeth to dust, To the thought you're still alive. You make me fucking sick You make me fucking sick For so long I've let this bleed, We are not who we used to be. There's nothing left to do, but turn my back on you. I am everything you never will be, And I will bury you, even if it kills me. I'm here to ruin the concept of good & evil, pray my spawn die. Lend me an ear & let me speak, I hope you never find what you speak. I'll always be the thought in your mind, that leaves you blind. I am still alive. For so long I've let this bleed, We are not who we used to be. There's nothing left to do, but turn my back on you. I am everything you never will be. And I will bury you, even if it kills me.
4.
I've waited to see if things would change I gave this world a fighting chance After every slap to the face I clench my fist a little tighter My body and mind are empty I'm now the slave to the master, I used to be I shed my skin, I've gained no beauty I've gained more reason to let go I've broke the seal to my repression, I look at the world And I see nothing worth liking No place to run, no place to hide From the fucked up feelings we have inside This is a war, I've spent a life time fighting And I see nothing worth liking This is a war I've spent a life time fighting I've waited to see if things would change I gave this world a fighting chance After every slap to the face I clench my fist a little tighter My body and mind are empty I'm now the slave to the master I used to be Replace my feeling with blind eyes Replace blind eyes with a god in the sky Replace the god in the sky with a hole in my head Replace everything and just let me die I look at the world, And I see nothing worth liking This is a war I have spent a life time fighting
5.
The cold fills my heart and bones, The sun makes me hide away. When it's beautiful, I want it to be grey. I wanna see the light in things, But it's blank from the dark. "Cheer up, suck it up. The pain numbs away." I'm at war with myself, I'm at war with myself. I have nothing else, But a fight with myself. The pain will numb away, The shame will fade to grey. My being; defining insanity. Every breath I took was suicide, A straight shot through the back of my mind. Fight for survival, When there's nothing to fight but my mind. My chest is full of things I can't let go. I can't let go. If I can see, Then I can believe everything that's thrown in front of me. But my eyes are grey & my thoughts at bay, My hands held by an anchor sinking into the sea. To face myself is to know myself, But who the fuck am I? I lost it all, I left myself behind. I turned into something I sworn I'd never be. I've failed you & I've failed myself, At the bottom of the barrel that I want to stare down. I'm always lost, but never found. In a vicious cycle always turning around.
6.
N.B.K 03:53
You've come to feed like the parasite you are, but I will watch you starve. You are the reason I wish everyone was fucking dead. My heroes are gone along with my faith One day I'll be someone's hero. When that day comes, kill me, because heroes are meant to die. Today will be the same as always Wakeing up with spit in my face My eye on the prize and your teeth on the curb Look me in the eyes when you say you're sorry The only fantasie I have is putting a barrel inbetween your teeth I am the blast of satisfaction going through the back of your skull I don't forgive and I don't forget I feed off your satisfaction and live on your fear I don't forgive and I don't forget My eye on the prize your teeth on the curb Share in the chaos or die in the aftermath You've come to feed like the parasite you are, but I will fucking watch you starve. You've come to feed like the parasite you are, I'll fucking watch you starve, I'll fucking watch you starve. I would tear down the pearly gates To fucking get to you would I'd beat you back to life to kill you again I would tear down the pearly gates To fucking get to you would I'd beat you back to life to kill you again Heros are meant to die. tI feed off your sadness and live on your fear Share in the chaos or die in the aftermath
7.
60 to 0 04:20
All I have left is a voice The 3 words, never leaving my heart Leave me with at least a whisper All I have left is imprints Solitude inside,empty hands The night is too long for me to bare The wings ripped from my back, I can't follow you home Lift this weight, Will I be strong enough? The things you left would make you so proud Walk through at anytime, and make this easy for me 6 feet has never seemed so fucking far We said we would never be apart We said we would never be apart Make sure you know, You're never too far Makes sure you know, I said I would never let go I will always love you Make sure you know, You would be so proud Make sure you know, Your heart rests in me You are finally free I'm not a man of god, but I hung a cross in your name let me sleep, let me sleep You are now finally free I dont need your pity, I need to turn this on myself I only see what is in front of me And what I see is something never comeing back It drowns me, now matter what I do The only thing I want will never be complete Fuck. I am only alive by default Make sure you know, You're never too far Makes sure you know, I said I would never let go I will always love you Make sure you know, You would be so proud Make sure you know, Your heart rests in me You are finally free
8.
We're not special, Nobody is. We live our lives, Like were afraid to live You, me, my family & friends, No matter what, it all ends. When it all comes crashing down, A new person begins. At the end of the day, I'm not afraid. At the end of the day, We all go our separate ways. At the end of the day, I'm not afraid. At the end of the day, We all go our separate ways. We took a trip down memory lane And got lost on the interstate To the cars that pass us by We are just a face If I looked up to the world, I would have hung my head in shame It is harder to say goodbye, Then to never have it at all We're not special, Nobody is. We live our lives Like were afraid to live You, me, my family & friends, No matter what, it all ends. When it all comes crashing down, A new person begins. Actions speak louder then words, but this is a silent film Everyone has left, It is my turn to watch a world burn Watch it burn It might not be an even trade, But I didn't come to fucking barter This is not an option, this is a curse We're not special, Nobody is. We live our lives Like were afraid to live You, me, my family & friends, No matter what, it all ends. When it all comes crashing down, A new person begins. I opened my eyes for the first time and saw things clearly Everything in the world is inevitable I don't know how to feel, I don't how to love I know how to tuck myself away And wish I could taste normality and find myself

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This is Up In Smokes 1st full length album "In Medias Res.

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released December 20, 2013

Brandon Helton
Tyler Haile
Connor Szecsi
Aidan Cheesman
Dylan Akins
Kyle Gutierrez

A big thanks goes out to Famt at Overthrown,
And thank you to Eric Hendricks from Illuminations for guest spotting.
Of course all of our fans for their love ans support and for getting this album!

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